CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 52 (REVIEW # 1: 6-10)

DAY 52

REVIEW OF DAYS 6-10
Spend two minutes contemplating each affirmation. If any one of the five affirmations appeals to you more than another, you may spend more time centering on that one.

The following ideas will be reviewed today:

 

DAY 6
What upsets and seems to threaten the state of Perfect Primordial Calmness, is not really present. It is not there, here, or anywhere. What I see then is a distorted subconscious, subjective mind fragment that is intruding upon Radical Right Perception of True Reality consisting of Eternal Spirit, Energy, and Cosmic Causal Thought. What I see is just a mirage in the desert my private mind made, a massive hallucination and egoic mind projection out onto the movie screen, the world of multiplicity, called prakriti. The emotionally charged distortions are part of a reactive process, a programmed response to what my ego thinks is going to cause pain, suffering, and annihilation of it.

 

What is truly Real cannot cause me to have nightmares. Nor can it have any power over me to cause me to be in turmoil or suffering of any kind. The Truly Real brings only Shanti-Peace. In the moments of absent-mindedness, when I am in some kind of self-made turmoil or suffering, it is because I have substituted Reality with avidya-illusions that I concocted. Those avidya-illusions have caused me suffering and anxiety because I have tried to make them real, and thus regard True Reality as illusory and without the essence of Ananda-Bliss which belongs to it. Not a single thing in the fullness of Father-Mother’s creation is affected by this delusion I have made. I need to accept and be in Divine-Realization that I come to be upset by something that doesn’t exist.

 

DAY 7
Out of all the possible things to perceive, I see only a privatized, fragmented past. I have flashbacks that scramble and confuse my orientation to True Reality.

 

Mental visions and interpretations of the past in the form of memories, flash backs, emotional and visceral highly charged associations/experiences cloud Radical Right Perception and Divine Realization from revealing True Reality of Communion with God Mind through Christ Mind to me. In seeing only the past projected out onto the screen of my life, I experience the split-mind. It is because of these factors that the immediacy of the present moment in the form of God Revealed Holy Instants outside of space-time, dissolves the past from having any major importance in my attempts to see True Reality. However the past experienced mind-fragments, dissociations, forgetfulness, time spent out of alignment with God Mind severely impacts the quality of seeing and the ability to see that I have always been in perfect Primordial First Right Relationship or in Christ Mind Yoga-Union with the Divine Dreamer.

 

Nothing that I see means anything because I superimpose past mental structures and thought out onto other people, onto the Unified God Allness, and onto events and happenings.

 

In seeing projections, mind fluctuations, and thoughts of the past almost everywhere I look, I alone have given/ascribed all the meaning that my subjective mind has determined any given encounter should have.

 

I don’t comprehend what I think I am seeing now, because of the interference of past programmed thinking, that I have projected onto all things. What I see and encounter now in most instances isn’t True Witnessed Reality undistorted. My thoughts about the world and my place in it do not mean anything because events in the psychologically constructed time function are neutral and devoid of any meaning. Because of this I am never truly disturbed.

 

All emotional uprisings the inner tidal waves of reactivity that surface within my body-mind-vehicle-chariot housing my unscathed soul, stem from the idea that the phantasms I project impede clear-seeing, creating inner havoc instead of inner peace.

No matter where in this dream world I look, what I think I see, I try to sabotage, judge, or punish with my private thoughts and I have the audacity to claim that this is what true seeing is. I use the past to persecute almost everyone through my thoughts and the use of words or actions that stem from those thoughts, thus making them into my rivals and foes. If I could but forgive first myself and honestly embrace the remembrance of my True Christed Self, I would be a vessel of healing, sending out magnetic vibrations consisting of blessings, consecrating everyone and everything my eyes gaze upon. If this could be so, there would be absolutely no remembered hurts, pain stored in the body-mind, or resentments that my egoic-ahamkar tries convincing me happened in the past. And so I choose again. Looking out with a loving heart-mind matrix on everything that I was blinded from previous to this Holy Instant of Now, where a miracle healed my perception and gave me clear-seeing clairvoyance.

 

DAY 8
What I habitually see or perceive is something that is not really present right now. It is a mirage in the desert wilderness of the storehouse or matrix from which I was begotten to create in. I chose this misperception about the invention of time as something that is real instead of taking part in the Divine Dreaming-Cosmic-Play of Creation-forces like I was meant to throughout eternity.

 

What I see are mind fragments and emotions attached to memories experienced biologically in the limbic system of the ego created body’s brain, that I chose to project outwards into the space-time continuum matrix, where manifested forms begin to appear through quantum phenomena of consciousness.

 

The apparitions or ghosts I project onto the Reality Light-Continuum called the Unified Field of God Essence, are not real. They are hallucinations of my ego mind, that aspect I experience when I forget Edenic Bliss as a constant Reality, the only Reality. When I fall into hypnotic trances of maya, relativity, subjectivity, I get tangled in a web of lies that I believe are true. Past points of reference cloud my seeing, because I am obsessed by them. Mental restlessness is the result of my preoccupation with the past. The resulting mental fluctuations called ‘vrittis’, or whirlpools of energetic pulsations in the form of feeling are the agents of massive perceptual distortion.

 

Why do I insist on seeing only my individual, false-self’s thoughts? Why do I want to see what I think happened in a distant past, but really did not in truth and actuality. No wonder I cannot interpret what I think I see as it really is, untainted. I take this moment to remind myself that I attach myself to what I call the haunting memories of the past to block the Ananda-Bliss and Shanti-Peace of the Now from rising up as a new dawn in my mind. I need to accept that my false-self has been trying to use the construct of time as a weapon against the Divine Source of All-That-Is. Beginning now, I surrender what I have called the past for all these years, and let it be healed, then dissolved into dust then nothingness. I now realize, that in doing this, I am not losing anything, rather I am liberated from the karmic burden I have been carrying for far too long.

 

DAY 9
I have created many obstacles and blocks to clear seeing in this moment through the wrong use of brain faculties and the self-constructed personality that fails to see the True Reality in its naked beauty, wonder, fullness of Radiant Perfection, the Allness made Manifest. The lens and window to Inner Seeing is obstructed by haunting thought imprints that I haven’t surrendered, released, nor been self-delivered from the subconsciously entrenched phantoms of past neurotic-skeletons-in-the-closet guilt. Guilt, bias, and pre-conceived judgment-notions along with patterns of reactivity stemming from ingrained neural grooves, cloud my ability to be present Here and Now.

 

If I fail to see True Reality in its naked beauty, wonder, fullness of Radiant Perfection, the Allness made Manifest in the formlessness of Light, Endless Love, Ananda-Bliss, Shanti-Peace, and Pure Potentiality, I must admit that I do not see anything at all. My only function is to see what is right Now. I accept that there is not a choice to interpret what I thought occurred in moments past or in that of the present, but rather, the only choice there is, is whether to see Truth or to see what is false, or avidya-illusions. That of which I have chosen to interpret in my brain-mind faculties has “sacrificed” Christed Vision. And so right now, in this Holy Instant, in conscious Yoga-Union and Communion with God Mind, I choose differently, so that I can see only the good, the holy, and the beautiful.

 

DAY 10
The pulsations of quantum energy and information, the building blocks of thought, heard in the brain-mind field, that take on many degrees of intensity and whirl at all kinds of speeds, colors, affects, moods, and qualities of dark, light, and admixed energies are devoid of meaning due to the fact that they are neutral. My mind is a blank slate that experiences fluctuations of chitta-mind stuff or vritti-feeling, but it still is a fact that I have a mind aligned with stillness, with the zero point of total neutrality in the Holy Instant of now. I am awareness not identified with thought nor with what arises in the mind, pretending to be significant, dramatic, spectacular, and intensely distracting and disturbing. Thoughts do not control me, nor the substance behind them. Within the perfect stillness I am immune to misery making and liberated from suffering. Affirming this reality and mind science I form the basis for Radical Right Awareness, attention to the Primordial State of Oneness, and open to the flow of Bliss-Peace nectar of Heaven within perfect silence.

 

I am only aware of privatized, individual thoughts though I have no privatized, isolated thoughts. My only Real Thoughts are ones I have in alignment with my Source. Perfect Peace and Oneness allows me to think only with the Blissful Thoughts of Divine Mind and the identity I share with all brothers and sisters in the Christ Mind. My individual thought forms and their vibrational frequencies mean nothing because they are not real in comparison to the Causal-Ideational Thoughts I think with my Supernal Parents. Subjective whirlpools of thought current and fluctuations within my individual, private, split mind are not real because they do not come from the Primordial Formless Light of Divinity.

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 17

(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)

DAY 17
I do not perceive with neutrality because my thoughts are not without a positionality or some slanted form of judgment or fixed belief. This day I take another step to recognize cause and effect and that I seem to be experiencing an outer manifested world that my egoic-ahamkar calls real. Thoughts and beliefs come before perception even though it seems to occur the other way around. My egoic mind-womb wants me to believe that perception comes first, but in reality I bring all preconceived notions, beliefs, and ideas from the past to the present moment that my egoic-ahamkar corrupts and assails with the onslaught of these fixed delusions.

 
I have the power to choose what I see. Love or fear. Peace or conflict. Safety or danger. Today I choose to act out of ahimsa (non-harming). To be gentle and non-violent on all levels of thought, avoiding the mishap of creating or giving meaning to an outer world with the opposite qualities. I want to be in the Awareness of Love and to release fear. To be in the Awareness of yoga-union. To consciously recognize Oneness or Samadhi. Brahman-Father-Mother bring me Endless Joy. To see from Radical Right Perception, with total clarity, not partiality, positionality, or slanted beliefs from the past. Help me to be in the Holy Instant of Now, outside of time and space and to Create and Extend Love with your True Seeing. The Reality of Love will shine through the communication device of my physical body, coming from the higher Astral and Causal Bodies of energy-potential and ideations respectively. In the silence, apart from the whirlpools (vritti-fluctuations) of thought streams, I recognize that my thoughts are either true or false. Loving or fearful. Life giving or life-depleting. From this recognition I apply today’s idea that my mind sees no neutral thought vibrations. The magnetic pull of energy-thought is either positive or negative in its charge. I choose the Bliss of truth. The constancy of love. Cosmic Inner Teacher help me to see through Love and Truth now and to extend light thoughts instead of project darkness through misperception. This is another call to Radical Right Perception. I gladly accept it and fully recognize I choose either Truth or Falsehood in the inner faculties that manifest thought. Finally, may flashes of insight and light or satori lead me back to perfect recognition that I am in Heaven now and that it is my negatively charged thoughts that keep me in hell. I am released through Radical Right Perception.

 

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 16

(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)

DAY 16

It is impossible to have thoughts without taking a position or a point of view. It also follows that my thoughts, regardless of whether they come from dark, light, or admixed energy vibrations will have an effect, either creating a world of separate, illusory forms or manifesting out of creative communication with the Divine, thoughts of Love from the One True Source of Love. Everything I see is the byproduct of thought. There is no thought too small or too big. Thoughts create experience. Experience creates beliefs. Beliefs create perceptions. Thoughts are either Radically Right or dreadfully out of alignment with truth. True thoughts extend from Love of Infinite Measure. False thoughts project and animate, paint, and out picture images and egoic-ahamkaric movies that aren’t true.

All my thoughts have some magnetic pull to them. Either upward toward Inner Heaven and the Kingdom or downward into matterward density. My mind is a power generator. A huge magnetic field, an attractor power. I can make an entire world from my egoic-film projector or extend Peace and Love in the field of Bliss-Truth-Light and allow grace and wonder to expand outward Eternally. No thoughts are neutral. They either extend Heaven or create hell. It is my choice that of which I manifest. Do I want final liberation in this life? Do I want conflict and strife or the Real Christ Presence of Peace? It is my choice. My thoughts have power. My mind has power.

Fearful thoughts cannot be ignored. They will produce illusions and constriction of life energy. They have a negative charge, with negative implications. They destroy peace. But they are not real at all. They do come from positionalities in the mind. It is my choice instead to choose the Radiance of Love, to extend it, and to be it, because that is what I am.

I search my mind and realize that each thought has a consequence. They either extend Love in its expansive, ever-evolving, every present reality, or mis-create and mis-manifest. I practice in one-minute increments saying to myself, “This thought about ________ is not neutral and comes from a magnetic vibration, either positive, negative, or admixed.”

I have no thoughts without a magnetic pull or frequency. Each one either comes from the whirlpool of feeling and fluctuation or Stillness-Bliss-Presence. I now know that my thoughts create the outer world or show me the Reality-Continuum of Heaven that has always been. My mind is a womb. A matrix. It never left the Matrix of Divinity-God-Mind. There is however a tare in the fabric of my mind, a sliver called an individual ego-mind. This causes conflict and the forgetfulness of peace. On the other hand, that aspect of my True Self found in Christ Mind, never left the mind of the Transcendent Light Source. My mind creates or makes. I want to create and communicate in love, in yoga-union with God-Mind rather than out picturing a fantasy world coming from lower frequency thoughts.

Many Faces of the Ego : Chapter 4 “A New Earth”

Chapter 4 in Eckhart Tolle’s book “A New Earth” centered on the roles that egos assume and the “many faces” of individual and collective egos.

To get its needs met, an ego will play a “role”. Things it may try to get from someone are material gain,  a sense of power, superiority, specialness, and gratification – either physical or psychological.

People are usually unaware of the roles they assume. Other things the ego through a role will seek are attention and psychic energy. They will seek the energy outside themselves because they are unconscious that it exists within them. So attention, recognition, praise, admiration, wanting to be noticed, and needing to have its existence acknowledged are aims of the ego roles that are assumed.

Egos derive from a conceptual sense of self, whether positive or negative – positive might be (I’m the greatest) and negative might be (I am no good). Tolle says that behind every positive self-concept is the hidden fear of not being good enough and behind every negative self-concept is the hidden desire of being greater or better than others. For instance, the shy, inadequate ego that feels inferior has a strong sense of superiority.

VILLAINS

Some egos will settle for other forms of attention through a “villain”-like role if it can’t get praise or admiration. Not getting positive attention, they seek the negative , maybe by provoking someone else to get a negative reaction out of them. For example, we see children misbehaving to get attention.  An important point made in the text was that the playing of negative roles is pronounced when the ego is magnified by the pain body, rather emotional pain from the past that wants to renew itself through more pain. You see this when people commit crimes for fame or seek attention through notoriety and condemnation. The voice behind the seeking is “please tell me I exist, that I am not insignificant”.

VICTIM

Playing the victim is a common role of the ego that consists of the personal drama of “me and my story”. Egos don’t want the false stories to end. They think that problems equal their identity. The voice that very well might drive this type of person is “I am treated unfairly by life and God.”

LOVER

Role playing the lover is done to attract and keep a relationship going or to initiate one with a person who will make a given ego happy, make them feel special, and they believe that a certain person will fulfill all their needs. Falling in love is really, in most cases an intensification of egoic wanting or needing.  Egos become addicted to people, rather the image they have of them. Falling in love, most of the time has nothing to do with true love. It is a matter of “I want you” vs. “I love you”.

LETTING GO OF SELF-DEFINITIONS

This section focused on the idea of having roles being conditioned by environmental and social structures. In this modern world, people are confused about where they fit in and who they are. Tolle’s main point under this subheading was that “when you fully accept that you don’t know (if you look to thought for an identity) then you enter a state of peace and clarity that is closer to who you are.”

PRE-ESTABLISHED ROLES

When you play roles, you are unconscious. But, when you catch yourself in a role, you “create a space.” This is the beginning of freedom from a given role. Some people totally identify with their roles, for example a doctor who doesn’t see their patient as human, but just a case history.

When people do identify with pre-established roles or function, “human interactions are inauthentic, dehumanized, and alienating.” Furthermore, “pre-established roles can give the comforting sense of identity, but ultimately, you lose yourself in them”. Functions in heirarchical organizations lend themselves to becoming role identities. For instance, in a government institution, the military, church structure, and in corporations.

Some pre-established roles are “social archetypes” such as the middle-class housewife (diminishing), the tough macho male, the female seductress, the “non-conformist” artist or performer, people of culture, and the adult. As a note, the Hippie Movement was a rejection of social archetypes, roles, and pre-established patterns of behavior in addition to egoically based social and economic structures. “Hippies” refused to play roles imposed on them. The 1950s were about conforming while the 1960s was about rejecting conformity. The Hippie movement made possible the movement of Eastern wisdom and spirituality to come to the West and play a part in Global Awakening.

To summarize more efficiently, Tolle spent time debunking false happiness and roles people assume, examined the roles and functions that enter parenthood, such as manipulating children through unconscious behavior versus being alert, aware, still, and present in the moment, he talked about conscious suffering and how suffering both comes as a result of the ego, but also burns the energy of the ego up, using the “man on the cross as an archetypal image to show how suffering does in fact erode the ego, he talked about how hard it is to give up the roles, fearing a loss of identity versus coming to know yourself as being, and then he examined the pathological, paranoid, schizophrenic, and split-personality nature of the ego and its roles.

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 14

(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)

DAY 14

A meaningless world is impossible. This is due to the fact that the world I see, God did not create. God created the infinite potentiality of thought, light, and energy. Our source is the First Cause.

 

The original split from Primordial Oneness Awareness with the Divine led to the out-picturing of what appears to be dense and very real. We bring form into being through projection of images and mirages we make with the collective split-mind fragment contained within the chamber of the ego. What God created, Infinite Paradise, untainted and not subject to laws of death, decay, and entropy – is eternal. So, again, I can say that the world I see is not real but appears and feels real in mayaic-subjectivity, the multiplicity of forms projected from the collective mass ego (ahamkar) consciousness known as son of man consciousness. It is Son of God Christ Mind forever in union with God Mind that is Primal and Real. The Divine Source, Brahman-Father-Mother, did not create the horrors of the world such as tragedies and war and cancer and heart attacks. Separation-delusion did, the fabricated space-time mis-perception, the mere dream-nightmare we must wake from.