DAY 25
I am not aware in this moment in time and space, what anything I seem to see with the body’s eyes are for. Purpose and meaning are the same. But my individual mind has confused and tried to replace the purpose of Christ Mind and the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God with a delusory thought system. I have many mistaken ideas when I choose to associate with the ego thought system. Since I do not know what any given thing I perceive is for, it by default has no meaning for me. It is time to let go of the meaning the egoic-ahamkar thought system has assigned to everything I seem to encounter in this world dream.
Everything in this world is supposed to be for my own best interests, according to the ego. But this is not the case. By design these things are supposed to fulfill me. That is what all things are supposed to be for under the thought system of the egoic-ahamkar. That is the purpose they are supposed to serve. The individual mind tells me that. Under this premise, my goals are in turn supposed to be unified. But this simply doesn’t happen when under the spell of illusion, subjectivity, and relativity. Everything becomes a blur and a distortion made to keep me asleep.
When I perceive with the individual, separative, subjective mind, I am unaware of what things are for and this mind gives meaning with its interpretation system. The aspirations and goals that originate in the individual mind that is separate from God Mind, are not in my own best interests, because I am in Reality not the individual egoic-ahamkar mind. My false association with the ego’s dream causes me to be incapable of knowing what anything means and what anything is for. Once I accept and acknowledge this, I will stop reinforcing my individual mind’s aspirations for the world dream I seem to experience and pull back from the projected images of these unconscious wishes. When I turn off the ego film projector by aligning with God and Christ Mind there will be a blank screen filled with golden-white light that the darkness of the images and wishes were hiding. Since I am only part of One Unified Mind, the wishes and desires of the individual mind really are concerned with nothing at all. By holding these wishes and desires as special, my individual mind has no goals, in the scope of what is True and Real, and therefore, I can’t know what anything is for.
When thinking in terms of superficiality, my egoic-ahamkar mind understands purpose, but True Purpose cannot be comprehended with superficial vibrations. The magnetism of thought at this level is weak and foggy at best.
In order to awaken, to grow in understanding, and to evolve, I must surrender and let go of the individual goals that come from the ego mind. Individual goals mean nothing. As mentioned in the previous day’s contemplation, Self and Christ-Realization, Divine Realization of who I really am is the only goal and will I really should and do have.
Today I will engage in contemplation six times for two minutes at each sitting. I will begin by reciting the idea for today and then start looking around me at whatever my eyes are drawn to, animate or inanimate. Then I will say: “I do not know what this _________ (be specific) is for.” I will say it slowly and mindfully.
Aum. Peace. Shanti. Amen.
(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)