DAY 41
The Father-Mother, Divine Guiding Light, Universal Spirit leads me and accompanies me on this journey, this exile, through the wilderness of the world, every step of the way, as I seek the Inner Promised Land of sweetness, milk and honey wholeness.
My intuitive fiery guide has never left me, even after I attempted to rebel and remove myself from the loving embrace of God Divine, the moment I tried to usurp His/Her power by choosing to be my own God apart and separate from that One Source of Inspiration.
I have no reason to feel lonely anymore. In truth, I have not been abandoned though I tried to abandon Father-Mother. This discernment and mental discrimination about what is truly real will allow me to triumph over all feelings of isolation, alienation, and abandonment. I have been depressed because of my decision to separate. It is the effect of that terrible choice. With depression comes all anxious, worrisome, helpless, miserable, fearful thoughts and all forms of perceived suffering. It is time to dissolve this accumulated karma, so I don’t have to continue to reap the negative effects of what I have sown.
In trying to be separate, I have concocted many supposed remedies for what I believe to be the insanity of the world I see. However, one thing I have not done is to call into question the reality of the perceived problem of there being a mental asylum ‘out there’ that I am subject to. There is no need to cure insanity and mental affliction, the effects of egoic-ahamkar separation because the perceived problem is not real. Today’s mental exercise has the ability to end all folly permanently. It is folly, though appearing to be quite concerning.
Within the nucleus of who I really am is the perfection of Oneness eager to shine forth as Great Rays of Truth out into the world I see through the manas-sense-mind eyes. This perfection and light will be the healing agent of all mental agony, perceived pain, the battle with fear, and any perception of loss. This truth-reality will align my mind with Reality, showing me that the suffering is not real and I cannot be harmed in any way as I am in Samadhi-Oneness, in God Communion and Yoga-Union with the Infinite.
My perfect wholeness is never taken from me, because its Divine Origin, the Source from which it came, is with me always, in all ways, everywhere I go. Endless Joy is my real experience making suffering impossible. My mind is still and at peace, because no matter where I appear to be, even stuck in the space-time continuum filled with forms and fearful images, Divinity is near and within, wherever I appear to be.
I must not believe this Truth, because it is hidden in the subconscious depths, behind the pits of despair and beneath the density of tamasic-darkening inertia, the matterward pull and afflicted thoughts which obscure me from seeing through Christed Vision. Today is about treading through the darkness, and shining a light out into the clouds that deter me from seeing and knowing that Divinity goes with me everywhere all of the time.
Today, I commit to one long practice period, first thing in the morning, when I arise, sitting in contemplation for three to five minutes closing the curtains of my body’s eyes from everything that appears to be external to my mind. First, I will repeat the idea slowly and make no concerted effort to think of anything at all. My goal is to simply turn away from the outside world, and close the door to my inner room, the Upper Room where Higher Awareness resides. I will pierce the veil to my inner tabernacle, penetrating the depths of my True Mind, ignoring thoughts that may try to invade and distract me.
At times throughout the day, I will repeat the mantra for today. But the true goal, is to go deep within and detach myself from all the troubling thoughts that are attached to the world I see. I will leave the appearances of forms, instead seeking the Ineffable Reality of All that Is, as it is, in the Heavenly Cosmos I never left now.
I can attain God Communion now and in every Holy Instant. It is natural to do so. The way to Bliss, Joy, and santosha-contentment will show itself, and I will become consciously aware of being One, in Samadhi with God Divine, by surrendering my entire attention to the inner layers of my being.
Throughout the day, I will chant today’s mantra often, with slow repetitions, closing my eyes whenever possible and I will contemplate what the word vibrations mean and how they feel in my metaphysical energy body. I will allow Kundalini Desire Energy to rise and expand my awareness of the wholeness and sanctity that complete me. It is time that I begin to laugh at all my fearful insinuations, and remember the Father-Mother, Divine Guiding Light, Universal Spirit leads me and accompanies me on this journey, this exile, through the wilderness of the world, every step of the way, as I seek the Inner Promised Land of sweetness, milk and honey wholeness.
(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)
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