CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY # 64

DAY 64

I will remember my purpose here in this dream world, in a seeming physical body, surrounded by what seems to be form in action. I will remember to forgive all people and all apparent happenings, thereby extending the Creation, Communication, and Love of God that still resides in Paradise Oneness.

 

I will not wander in the desert wilderness of temptations. Nor will I fail the test that the ego-ahamkar places upon me, trying to challenge my faith in the ability to offer miracles of forgiveness and thereby, the correction of the Atonement or At-One-Ment.

 

The world challenges me with opposition, trying to cloud my one true purpose, trying to get me to forget the joy that forgiving brings. The ego-ahamkar tempts me to materialize moment after moment and call this appearance the Son/Daughter of God-Mind Presence, when it is not. The Son/Daughter of God is eternal and only assumes appearances in form that are fleeting. The physical body’s eyes simply look upon what doesn’t last.

 

The physical body’s eyes seem to see, but this is not sight. This is seeing masked behind temptation. Taking on a physical and material body was a temptation that arose out of a field of all possibilities and potential. I fell into matter. I chose this incarnation to work out and dissolve karma, born with samskaric-tendency impulses brought from past incarnations.

 

The Divine Mother, the Holy Spirit, Kundalini Fire and Desire Energy at the center of my True Being has an important purpose. To use avidya-illusions, the temptations to make form seem real and to turn the tables on them. To forgive them. The ego-ahamkar tries to convince me I have sinned, acting as an inner “accuser”, a “critic”, a voice of condemnation. The Holy Spirit lets me look upon what the ego-ahamkar calls sin and merely dissolves and undoes what never was in actuality. It looks on my would be sins and calls them mistakes to correct. To forgive. To release.

 

Looking back at the previous few lessons, my purpose while here on earth or in any other dimension I appear to be in is to be the Light, Liberation, and Love that shines away all darkness.  This purpose was an innate gift and responsibility from God Mind Presence. The ego-ahamkar is inflated by nature and would have me doubt this purpose, which is to forgive and bless. By fearing the ego-ahamkar, trying to make it real, I sometimes doubt my ability to extend love, offer miracles of forgiveness, and bring Liberation to the world. I can join in the effort with other messiahs by offering miracles of forgiveness to bring true and lasting freedom to this world, to help aid in the release from avidya-illusions of others and the ones I am responsible for, thereby taking the attraction of the manas-sense mind’s temptations to believe in what is false. Every mind and I are the Sons/Daughters of God, the one creation only appearing to be many.

 

I will remind myself to forgive, be the Light, to Love, and to Liberate in the morning, at night and all throughout the day. For everything I decide, I will make the pre-decision to offer miracles of forgiveness. My decision has the power to bring me bliss, santosha-contentment, or suffering. The decision is simple. I know what I need to do. I will not be deceived by the forms decisions seem to take, discerning, rather their intentions. I have but one choice. To choose in favor of form or in the truth that lies beyond form.

 

Today, I affirm these thoughts:

 

“I will remember my purpose here in this dream world, in a seeming physical body, surrounded by what seems to be form in action. I will remember to forgive all people and all apparent happenings, thereby extending the Creation, Communication, and Love of God that still resides in Paradise Oneness. I will refrain from replacing what I think is my purpose for God’s. I want to be supremely content.”

 

For one sitting, I will devote fifteen minutes with eyes closed, shutting out the external world, to contemplating this very idea. I trust that relevant thoughts will support me and my efforts to integrate the core meaning of this affirmation.

 

I will also commit to two shorter sittings, sometimes closing my eyes, and sometimes leaving them open, concentrating on thoughts that relate to the affirmation of truth. When I have my eyes open, I will say:

 

“This is the world that I am to Liberate, Love, and forgive. I see only sinlessness. I, therefore awaken to the truth of my being.”  

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CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 59 (REVIEW # 1: DAYS 41-45)

DAY 59

Today I will review the following:

 

DAY 41

The Father-Mother, Divine Guiding Light, Universal Spirit leads me and accompanies me on this journey, this exile, through the wilderness of the world, every step of the way, as I seek the Inner Promised Land of sweetness, milk and honey wholeness.

 

I can never be alone nor uncertain or without perfect faith in the Father and Holy Spirit Mother Kundalini-Sophia. I cannot be disturbed because the Father and Mother abide in me, bringing me peace. I cannot suffer or be in despair because Love and Joy Divine envelop me through the Supernal Parents. I will not cherish the limited false self. I enjoy the gift of perfection because God Presence accompanies me on this journey every step of the way.

  

DAY 42

My deep abiding faith, belief, and power to Love comes from the Presence of God within. Christ Vision is the Father-Mother’s gift to my True Self and brings blessings of Joy and Peace.

 

My manas-sense mind and the physical body’s eyes are limited. I will not rely on them for sight today. I trade my poor attempts at seeing, believing in avidya-illusions for Christ Vision that is given by the Father-Mother. I invoke this gift today, so that my mind may seek to comprehend the Everlasting Goodness of Eternity.                                                          

 

DAY 43

I am an extension of the Primal Cause, God Presence, Divine Mind, Immortal Brahman Spirit, the Indestructible Father-Mother Source. I am a creation of this Loving Source and I see only in alignment with this Presence and Mind.

 

God Presence, Divine Mind wants me to see certain things and not others. I will see what the Supernal Parents want me to see. There is nothing else to see. There is God Mind’s will and then there are my avidya-illusions. I tend to choose these avidya-illusions when I believe I can see apart from my Source. When I choose to use the limited individual manas-sense mind and the body’s eyes, I see only what is unreal. The calming reality is that Christ Vision has been freely given to me to take the place of avidya-illusions and all related delusions. I affirm this day, that I will see through Christ Vision instead of the physical body’s eyes.

 

DAY 44

Through Gnosis-Knowing and Divine Realization, contact with the Light of Father-Mother God, the Immortal Indwelling, is possible. This contact and awareness is the powerful Light Source that allows me to see the True Reality of Love right now.

 

Darkness and ignorance impede Gnosis-Knowing and Divine Realization. The Father-Mother is the One and only light. In that case, if I am to see, it will only be in and through my Supernal Parents. I have been mistaken about what I thought sight was. I am grateful that it has been given to me now to grasp that through awareness I Realize God Presence is the Light Source that allows me to see the Truth and the Reality of Love in this Holy Instant.

 

DAY 45

The causal, ideational thoughts of God Presence are my real thoughts. From the Mind of this Divine Source comes all Truth, Love, Light, Blessings, Magnetism, Peace, Joy, Ananda-Bliss, and Santosha-Contentment.

 

My real thoughts are the thoughts that God Presence thinks through me. In reality, there is no separation and in truth, all real thoughts that pass through my mind are there because God Presence put them there. The Mind of this Divine Source is one with my mind. Therefore, my thoughts are my Supernal Parents’ and the thoughts that come from them are mine.

 

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 55 (REVIEW # 1: DAYS 21-25)

DAY 55
Today I will review the following affirmations, spending two minutes reflecting on each one.

 

DAY 21
With alignment to Infinite Willpower given to me by God Mind, I am determined to see objectively, from my Inner Witnessing Presence Awareness in a different, more clear perspective, seeing through the One Reality of Love in Radical Right Perception and Christ-Atman-Buddha-Krishna Mind Vision. I want to be liberated in this life through moksha. To break free from the cycle of birth and death. To let go of my grievances, my anger, to see not through my klesha-afflictions, but through the One Love that unites us all.

 

All that I seem to see are images of disease, disaster, and death, Jeshua (Jesus) says. God Presence did not intend this for His/Her Sons and Daughters. The fact that I see these things proves that I misunderstand the Divine Source and therefore don’t correctly realize who His Son is. That of which I see indicates to me, I do not realize who I really am. I have the volition through Infinite Willpower to see only the truth of my being, not avidya-illusions.

 

DAY 22
The images and thoughts of which I interpret to mean something with a negatively charged vibration are really an assault on the little self I call ‘me’. When I identify with an individual, separate, different from others self, I perceive and interpret the world to be an attack on my egoic false-self. I am not an individual self. I am part of One Whole Unified Field of Love and Light. When I believe I am an individual self instead of the Son/Daughter of God, the True Self Christ and Atman, I am assaulting myself with unconscious fragments and slivers of false thought. When I deny assault in my individual mind, I use the egoic film projector to create and interpret that very assault as coming from an outside world, disowning it. My response is to enshroud myself in a bubble of protection from that world and attack and assault it, my brothers and sisters in spirit, and all of which I seem to perceive. I get caught in the vicious cycle of the egoic-ahamkar manifestation of drama comprised of conflict, where I seem to see assault and attack and then feel the intense need to counter attack. This will continue to happen until I liberate my mind through Jnana Yogic discrimination. Using the buddhi-intellect, I deny the manas-sense-mind from taking control of what I interpret to be a hostile reality, that in truth is an illusion. I must and can escape from my ingrained perceptual hoax, the carnal, savage movie I out-picture as a world filmstrip, with attached sound, tainted light beams, moving images, a script, sets, props, tragedies and comedies at the expense of truth, and actors and actresses, who I think are making independent choices, when in reality I am making them up from the one ahamkar-ego that is appearing as a multiplicity of egos.

 

The world I perceive is not a representation of vibratory loving thoughts. As Jeshua Jesus says, “It is a picture of attack on everything by everything. It is anything but a reflection of the Love of God and the Love of His Son.” I must affirm that it is my own thoughts of threat that paint this picture of life as I know it in this world. I must know that my loving and peaceful thought waves that will liberate me from such a perception of the world, and give me the bliss-peace-shimmering-light Divine Presence wants me to have.
Today I will change my thoughts to change the world I see.

 

DAY 23
I can dream a new dream, see a new world order by surrendering my assaulting thoughts that my individual egoic-ahamkar mind projects outward into the sea of nothingness-void, by letting the Radical Right Minded Projector shine Light and Love rather than the despair of fear. Free breeds anger. Anger produces assault and attack thoughts. The only release from fear comes by transforming my chitta-mind stuff, the vritti-fluctuations of the mind. By making my mind still and empty. By changing what I project. By extending only Loving thoughts. By welcoming in the neutral mind and caring for the aura and radiant bodies that are at my core, from the existence of the nine other bodies outside the physical. I must go beyond the physical sheath, the anna maya kosha out to the intellectual sheath or the buddhi mind, the mano maya kosha, and out even further to the Bliss sheath, the ananda maya kosha. Bliss will eradicate the fear that produces assault and attack thoughts. Perceiving with the physical ego-body’s eyes will always breed assault and defensiveness stemming from fear of danger.

 

Though I can be a change agent in the world, there is no real point in trying to manipulate outer appearances of form. At the level of causation and ideational thought, I must create in alignment with God Mind, a different experience while in the illusory world. Changing at the level of cause will change the effect on the movie screen of the matrix ego-womb mind. The world I seem to perceive is an assault on myself. But the illusory external unreality cannot really harm me in all honesty. The movie dream my split mind projects is not True Seeing. This is not sight, but hallucination. Image making is not the same as resting in Pure Being or Samadhi Oneness with Divine God Mind. My false-self superimposes images of assault and they seem to assault me back. Radical Right Perception must be welcomed by my Higher Mind, the Christ Mind-Atman Self. Mirages do not last and cannot have Infinite effects. Communion and Yoga-Union with God will be the Everlasting Will that extends rather than projects.

 

Aligning with Radical Right Perception and even going beyond perception at all levels to Gnosis-Knowledge or Divine Realization and Divine Contact will bring about true liberation from karma or the law of cause and effect that seems to bind me to all the physical bodies I have inhabited in life time after life time. I am tired of dying and coming back to the world I hallucinate in conjunction with the one fractured collective ego. Some people call the liberation I seek, salvation, but liberation has a different connotation.

 

Under the spell of maya-hypnosis, I do not see that I am the filmmaker, seeming to direct this motion-picture film drama of apparent happenings. My Christ Mind can change what is playing in the theater of shadows and replace the disturbing, violent, horror film, the product of fear and hate and must replace it with a different film which was made by Divinity Allness, Supreme Spirit, Brahman-Father-Mother, the moment the separation seemed to occur (although it did not), when the Memory of my Divine Origin was placed in my mind, Kundalini Desire Energy or the Rising Potential of Holy Spirit.

 

By surrendering assaulting thoughts, I am liberated. Without thoughts having the intent to harm, I would not perceive a world filled with assault and threats of danger. Today, I allow forgiveness to bring love back into my mind field, so as to only see a world of peace and safety and joy. I choose these things instead of what I now perceive.

 

DAY 24
My individual, egoic-ahamkar misuses the faculties of perception to receive messages that do not reflect what is of optimum wellness and truly right and good for me. Self and Christ-Realization is the only goal I should have. Due to strongly identifying with an individual, isolated self appearing to be in this world exile experience in the unpredictable wilderness, I seem to be under a spell of delusion that prevents me from perceiving outcomes to expectations that will bring me Supreme Santosha-Contentment. Alone and apart from the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of Divinity Origin, the Holy Desire-Energy-Spirit in my mind, I have no real guide to making the best choices that would bring about Supreme Santosha-Contentment and my overall good. What I have perceived with my individual egoic-ahamkar have been misconstrued and untrue and therefore what I have chosen to do in almost all circumstances has depended upon my interpretations and perceptions. So, I must embrace acceptance that I apart from God Mind do not recognize what is Radically Right for me to do. To do what is Radically Right and good should be my only expectation at all times, because I am prone to hypnotic confusion about what is the best outcome for my True Self, Christ and Atman Self. Recognizing that on my own, I will be unclear about what is of optimum wellness for me, opens me to being taught by the Inner Guru, Inner Wisdom, Universal Inspiration, and the Intuitive Guide Within. Asleep at the wheel of this earth-bound experience will only block learning. Today, I take a step towards expanding my mind about what is Radically Right for me to do while in this body vehicle, seeming to interact with outer objects, people, and experiences.

 

How can I recognize what is of true, optimum wellness for me when I do not know who I am? What I think is truly right and good for me really keep me in bondage to delusions. I affirm and commit to listening to the guide Divine Presence gave to me in my mind the second separation seemed to occur. I realize I cannot perceive optimum wellness and what is truly right and good for me on my own.

 

Today, I must be brutally honest with myself so as not to fall victim to contradictory outcomes, by accepting that my individual, isolated self knows nothing on its own. This is an important step in the process of unraveling the mind from the web of maya I am stuck in. I want to awaken in this lifetime.

 

 

DAY 25
I am not aware in this moment in time and space, what anything I seem to see with the body’s eyes are for. Purpose and meaning are the same. But my individual mind has confused and tried to replace the purpose of Christ Mind and the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God with a delusory thought system. I have many mistaken ideas when I choose to associate with the ego thought system. Since I do not know what any given thing I perceive is for, it by default has no meaning for me. It is time to let go of the meaning the egoic-ahamkar thought system has assigned to everything I seem to encounter in this world dream. Everything in this world is supposed to be for my own best interests, according to the ego. But this is not the case. By design these things are supposed to fulfill me. That is what all things are supposed to be for under the thought system of the egoic-ahamkar. That is the purpose they are supposed to serve. The individual mind tells me that. Under this premise, my goals are in turn supposed to be unified. But this simply doesn’t happen when under the spell of illusion, subjectivity, and relativity. Everything becomes a blur and a distortion made to keep me asleep.
When I perceive with the individual, separative, subjective mind, I am unaware of what things are for and this mind gives meaning with its interpretation system. The aspirations and goals that originate in the individual mind that is separate from God Mind, are not in my own best interests, because I am in Reality not the individual egoic-ahamkar mind. My false association with the ego’s dream causes me to be incapable of knowing what anything means and what anything is for. Once I accept and acknowledge this, I will stop reinforcing my individual mind’s aspirations for the world dream I seem to experience and pull back from the projected images of these unconscious wishes. When I turn off the ego film projector by aligning with God and Christ Mind there will be a blank screen filled with golden-white light that the darkness of the images and wishes were hiding. Since I am only part of One Unified Mind, the wishes and desires of the individual mind really are concerned with nothing at all. By holding these wishes and desires as special, my individual mind has no goals, in the scope of what is True and Real, and therefore, I can’t know what anything is for.

 

When thinking in terms of superficiality, my egoic-ahamkar mind understands purpose, but True Purpose cannot be comprehended with superficial vibrations. The magnetism of thought at this level is weak and foggy at best. Today, I realize that the purpose of everything and everyone I think of and see is to convince me that my avidya-illusions about myself are in effect real and true. I have a false belief that the world is for telling me these things that are not really true. The purpose I have given the film dream movie of a world led to a terror-inducing picture of it. Today, I commit to opening and expanding my mind to the world’s real purpose which is to teach me to wake up and be only Love for All in All.

 

In order to awaken, to grow in understanding, and to evolve, I must surrender and let go of the individual goals that come from the ego mind. Individual goals mean nothing. As mentioned in the previous day’s contemplation, Self and Christ-Realization, Divine Realization of who I really am is the only goal and will I really should and do have. Aum. Peace. Shanti. Amen.

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 50

DAY 50
Divine Love, God’s Infinite, Unending, Undying, Everlasting Life and Love, is my spiritual umbilical cord, reaching from the One True Paradise Within, the Kingdom/Queendom of Heaven. This gold and silver cord carries my life force energy that supplies me with all the strength I need to give, extend, and return Love to my Source and all of manifest creation. My aura and astral energy body are empowered by the Infinite causal mind and body of thought and ideation, and from the astral mind and body comes the life essence that sustains my temporary body vehicle and its sense-mind interpreters of materialized form, trying to make sense out of an existence of multiplicity made by subjectivity and mayaic-delusion.

 
Though I have put my trust in what Jeshua (Jesus) calls “insane and trivial symbols” for protection and the maintenance of health and well being such as the prana of this world which is money, or in magic potions such as pharmacological pills, clothing that is supposed to protect me from the earth elements, having individual significance, the need to be accepted and adored, looking for pain relief in substances and sense pleasures, and in surrounding myself with certain people who I think will make me feel important, God Presence is my only sustenance.

 

The things on this list, which could go on endlessly, are what I use to replace Love Divine. I use these distractions to identify with the dense, physical body and with “special” love based on conditions I make. They try to glorify the ego-ahamkar false-self image. These substitutes will not sustain me, nor help me remember the Paradise Oneness, I in truth never left.

 

Avidya-illusions do not deserve my faith. Only the unchangeable, Infinite Love of Divinity should receive my full attention and desire. I will stop ruminating on illusions and false remedies that bring empty promises to pain, suffering, sadness, fear, and guilt. Only the individual mind can be sick. And it is my mind identified with Infinity that releases me from the idolatry of believing in gods of sickness, mental agony, and all forms of lack.

 

I am eternally safe in the Love of God Presence. No danger exists and I am not subject to any threats to my true peace and bliss. I need but choose my Source for strength and health and lasting calmness.

 

I will commit to two ten minute sittings today, where my prayers and dharana-concentration are centered on the affirmation for today. I will recite it, focus on it, let any thoughts that challenge my belief in today’s affirmation to enter my thought stream, and then allow the recognition of truth to dawn upon my mind that is linked to God Mind. I will not be robbed of peace and the awareness of mental rest. Restlessness is a sure sign of madness and investment in avidya-illusions that will not bring me wholeness, wellness, nor mindfulness.

 

(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)