Shadow Figures: Seeing the Past in the Present/Taking Back Projections

Do you ever catch yourself responding to someone in your life in a way that you responded to someone from your past that you feel and think hurt you or deprived you of love and appreciation in some way? We all do, right? Why is that?


We tend to bury our pain and feelings of rejection experienced in the past or in childhood (this tends to receive a lot of flack). Then, we make people in the present pay for those buried emotions and even the grievances that form as a result of them. Shadow figures are talked about in Chapter 13 of A Course in Miracles, but not so openly in Course “Circles” or outside of psychological contexts. But this topic should be a more prominent source of discussion in my opinion.


I know that, in hindsight, I have seen myself being punitive or reactive towards people in my life in the present in situations where I really am responding to someone or something that person from the past said or did that I interpreted as harmful or hurtful. Again, we do this sort of thing all the time and are mostly unconscious of this behavior.


We may respond to our spouse or partner in a reactive way when we are really “telling off” a past lover, friend, or even parent. We need to become more conscious of when and how we project these images onto people in our life now. Much could be said about this topic, for it is a common problem. But really, how do we avoid making our friends, acquaintances, and loved ones “pay” for what we perceived as hurts or having been wronged in some way in the past?


We need to see everyone as guiltless. And we need to release the past. That includes recognizing grievances and pain we have stored in our minds and bodies. If we see everyone as innocent and as a Son or Daughter of the Divine, we see past “errors” or “attacks” we perceived had the ability to hurt us in some way. What we need to do is adopt a way of seeing and believing that we are invulnerable and cannot be hurt, not by people or occurrences from the past, not now, and not in the future either. The solution is simple, but seems often an insurmountable feat to try to accomplish.


We need to forgive. Everything. Always. That starts with recognition of how we keep allow ourselves to be imprisoned by people from our past, and see just how much we let that carry over into the present. It certainly isn’t going to be easy. And it doesn’t happen overnight. Sometimes we are going to blow up on someone we love, here and now, and it may take doing that to realize we are still chained to the past. Love and forgiveness. Practice it. Do it. Keep doing it. Free yourself and others. Do it now. And ask the honest questions before you feel like saying something volatile. Such as, what am I really feeling and am I extending love or acting out of fear of reliving the past in some way? Recognize. Release. Realize. Let go. Surrender to the now. And extend love consistently. You can’t go wrong. And finally, take back your projections you have superimposed onto people in the present, whether you know them well, or just have a casual encounter with them on the street or at work. It’s worth it to become more aware of how we respond to others. It is just one key to unlock the door to contentment and happiness as well as peace and acceptance too.


DAY 31
I am not at the mercy of a world I seem to see outside of me that appears to threaten me with danger, trying to inflict pain, suffering, and psychological and biological torture upon my True Self, Christ and Atman Self, which in reality cannot be harmed. All assaults and threats of harm come from my individual split ego mind. They originate from no outside place. The world I have made is not a perpetrator and punishing force. My individual mind is the cause of my subjectively experienced mental agony that I seem to experience in a physical body.


I think I am guilty and going to a place called hell, gehenna, the underworld, even though such a place doesn’t exist, but I instead choose to return to the awareness of the Paradise Heaven within, that I never left in truth, now, instead of remaining a victim of my own attacking thoughts and emotions. Though my individual egoic-ahamkar mind tries to steal my Santosha-Contentment and Bliss, I am really capable of being free from self- destructive, pain inflicting thoughts. I use the poison of guilt to try and diminish my sense of peace, bliss, and communion in God Mind. In any given moment, I choose pain or Love. But pain is self-inflicted, not coming from an outside world. Therefore, I need to get to the root of the problem and change my thought fluctuations in order to change my perceptions and the life I experience as a result.
What guide will I choose today? The memory of God in my mind or the separate, individual egoic-ahamkar tendencies? I choose the upward magnetic pull of God Mind within rather than being pulled downward into the density of negative vibrations of assault and threats of harm to my beingness, which in truth could never be threatened.



Do I want pain or do I want Unending Love? It is always my choice. I choose what I seem to experience, feel, and even suffer. But today, I choose Love for my True Self over assault from my false self. I embrace ahimsa (non-harming) towards myself and others. When I am not at peace, it is not the outside projected world threatening me with my own demise. My egoic-ahamkar has invented the chaos that I choose in moments of insanity.


Today, I will choose freedom over the shackles I have placed upon my self. For two three to five minute contemplative sittings, once in the morning and once in the evening, I will repeat the idea for today two or three times. Following this, I will close my eyes and apply the idea to my inner environment. The goal is to be released from both worlds, as the inner manufactures the outer. I will repeat the idea for today throughout the day as well to take steps toward full releasement from bondage and self-inflicted hell and psychological-emotional fluctuations that seem to abuse me. I take back my projected dream film of attempted violence against my Christed Nature.


(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)