DAY 55
Today I will review the following affirmations, spending two minutes reflecting on each one.
DAY 21
With alignment to Infinite Willpower given to me by God Mind, I am determined to see objectively, from my Inner Witnessing Presence Awareness in a different, more clear perspective, seeing through the One Reality of Love in Radical Right Perception and Christ-Atman-Buddha-Krishna Mind Vision. I want to be liberated in this life through moksha. To break free from the cycle of birth and death. To let go of my grievances, my anger, to see not through my klesha-afflictions, but through the One Love that unites us all.
All that I seem to see are images of disease, disaster, and death, Jeshua (Jesus) says. God Presence did not intend this for His/Her Sons and Daughters. The fact that I see these things proves that I misunderstand the Divine Source and therefore don’t correctly realize who His Son is. That of which I see indicates to me, I do not realize who I really am. I have the volition through Infinite Willpower to see only the truth of my being, not avidya-illusions.
DAY 22
The images and thoughts of which I interpret to mean something with a negatively charged vibration are really an assault on the little self I call ‘me’. When I identify with an individual, separate, different from others self, I perceive and interpret the world to be an attack on my egoic false-self. I am not an individual self. I am part of One Whole Unified Field of Love and Light. When I believe I am an individual self instead of the Son/Daughter of God, the True Self Christ and Atman, I am assaulting myself with unconscious fragments and slivers of false thought. When I deny assault in my individual mind, I use the egoic film projector to create and interpret that very assault as coming from an outside world, disowning it. My response is to enshroud myself in a bubble of protection from that world and attack and assault it, my brothers and sisters in spirit, and all of which I seem to perceive. I get caught in the vicious cycle of the egoic-ahamkar manifestation of drama comprised of conflict, where I seem to see assault and attack and then feel the intense need to counter attack. This will continue to happen until I liberate my mind through Jnana Yogic discrimination. Using the buddhi-intellect, I deny the manas-sense-mind from taking control of what I interpret to be a hostile reality, that in truth is an illusion. I must and can escape from my ingrained perceptual hoax, the carnal, savage movie I out-picture as a world filmstrip, with attached sound, tainted light beams, moving images, a script, sets, props, tragedies and comedies at the expense of truth, and actors and actresses, who I think are making independent choices, when in reality I am making them up from the one ahamkar-ego that is appearing as a multiplicity of egos.
The world I perceive is not a representation of vibratory loving thoughts. As Jeshua Jesus says, “It is a picture of attack on everything by everything. It is anything but a reflection of the Love of God and the Love of His Son.” I must affirm that it is my own thoughts of threat that paint this picture of life as I know it in this world. I must know that my loving and peaceful thought waves that will liberate me from such a perception of the world, and give me the bliss-peace-shimmering-light Divine Presence wants me to have.
Today I will change my thoughts to change the world I see.
DAY 23
I can dream a new dream, see a new world order by surrendering my assaulting thoughts that my individual egoic-ahamkar mind projects outward into the sea of nothingness-void, by letting the Radical Right Minded Projector shine Light and Love rather than the despair of fear. Free breeds anger. Anger produces assault and attack thoughts. The only release from fear comes by transforming my chitta-mind stuff, the vritti-fluctuations of the mind. By making my mind still and empty. By changing what I project. By extending only Loving thoughts. By welcoming in the neutral mind and caring for the aura and radiant bodies that are at my core, from the existence of the nine other bodies outside the physical. I must go beyond the physical sheath, the anna maya kosha out to the intellectual sheath or the buddhi mind, the mano maya kosha, and out even further to the Bliss sheath, the ananda maya kosha. Bliss will eradicate the fear that produces assault and attack thoughts. Perceiving with the physical ego-body’s eyes will always breed assault and defensiveness stemming from fear of danger.
Though I can be a change agent in the world, there is no real point in trying to manipulate outer appearances of form. At the level of causation and ideational thought, I must create in alignment with God Mind, a different experience while in the illusory world. Changing at the level of cause will change the effect on the movie screen of the matrix ego-womb mind. The world I seem to perceive is an assault on myself. But the illusory external unreality cannot really harm me in all honesty. The movie dream my split mind projects is not True Seeing. This is not sight, but hallucination. Image making is not the same as resting in Pure Being or Samadhi Oneness with Divine God Mind. My false-self superimposes images of assault and they seem to assault me back. Radical Right Perception must be welcomed by my Higher Mind, the Christ Mind-Atman Self. Mirages do not last and cannot have Infinite effects. Communion and Yoga-Union with God will be the Everlasting Will that extends rather than projects.
Aligning with Radical Right Perception and even going beyond perception at all levels to Gnosis-Knowledge or Divine Realization and Divine Contact will bring about true liberation from karma or the law of cause and effect that seems to bind me to all the physical bodies I have inhabited in life time after life time. I am tired of dying and coming back to the world I hallucinate in conjunction with the one fractured collective ego. Some people call the liberation I seek, salvation, but liberation has a different connotation.
Under the spell of maya-hypnosis, I do not see that I am the filmmaker, seeming to direct this motion-picture film drama of apparent happenings. My Christ Mind can change what is playing in the theater of shadows and replace the disturbing, violent, horror film, the product of fear and hate and must replace it with a different film which was made by Divinity Allness, Supreme Spirit, Brahman-Father-Mother, the moment the separation seemed to occur (although it did not), when the Memory of my Divine Origin was placed in my mind, Kundalini Desire Energy or the Rising Potential of Holy Spirit.
By surrendering assaulting thoughts, I am liberated. Without thoughts having the intent to harm, I would not perceive a world filled with assault and threats of danger. Today, I allow forgiveness to bring love back into my mind field, so as to only see a world of peace and safety and joy. I choose these things instead of what I now perceive.
DAY 24
My individual, egoic-ahamkar misuses the faculties of perception to receive messages that do not reflect what is of optimum wellness and truly right and good for me. Self and Christ-Realization is the only goal I should have. Due to strongly identifying with an individual, isolated self appearing to be in this world exile experience in the unpredictable wilderness, I seem to be under a spell of delusion that prevents me from perceiving outcomes to expectations that will bring me Supreme Santosha-Contentment. Alone and apart from the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of Divinity Origin, the Holy Desire-Energy-Spirit in my mind, I have no real guide to making the best choices that would bring about Supreme Santosha-Contentment and my overall good. What I have perceived with my individual egoic-ahamkar have been misconstrued and untrue and therefore what I have chosen to do in almost all circumstances has depended upon my interpretations and perceptions. So, I must embrace acceptance that I apart from God Mind do not recognize what is Radically Right for me to do. To do what is Radically Right and good should be my only expectation at all times, because I am prone to hypnotic confusion about what is the best outcome for my True Self, Christ and Atman Self. Recognizing that on my own, I will be unclear about what is of optimum wellness for me, opens me to being taught by the Inner Guru, Inner Wisdom, Universal Inspiration, and the Intuitive Guide Within. Asleep at the wheel of this earth-bound experience will only block learning. Today, I take a step towards expanding my mind about what is Radically Right for me to do while in this body vehicle, seeming to interact with outer objects, people, and experiences.
How can I recognize what is of true, optimum wellness for me when I do not know who I am? What I think is truly right and good for me really keep me in bondage to delusions. I affirm and commit to listening to the guide Divine Presence gave to me in my mind the second separation seemed to occur. I realize I cannot perceive optimum wellness and what is truly right and good for me on my own.
Today, I must be brutally honest with myself so as not to fall victim to contradictory outcomes, by accepting that my individual, isolated self knows nothing on its own. This is an important step in the process of unraveling the mind from the web of maya I am stuck in. I want to awaken in this lifetime.
DAY 25
I am not aware in this moment in time and space, what anything I seem to see with the body’s eyes are for. Purpose and meaning are the same. But my individual mind has confused and tried to replace the purpose of Christ Mind and the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God with a delusory thought system. I have many mistaken ideas when I choose to associate with the ego thought system. Since I do not know what any given thing I perceive is for, it by default has no meaning for me. It is time to let go of the meaning the egoic-ahamkar thought system has assigned to everything I seem to encounter in this world dream. Everything in this world is supposed to be for my own best interests, according to the ego. But this is not the case. By design these things are supposed to fulfill me. That is what all things are supposed to be for under the thought system of the egoic-ahamkar. That is the purpose they are supposed to serve. The individual mind tells me that. Under this premise, my goals are in turn supposed to be unified. But this simply doesn’t happen when under the spell of illusion, subjectivity, and relativity. Everything becomes a blur and a distortion made to keep me asleep.
When I perceive with the individual, separative, subjective mind, I am unaware of what things are for and this mind gives meaning with its interpretation system. The aspirations and goals that originate in the individual mind that is separate from God Mind, are not in my own best interests, because I am in Reality not the individual egoic-ahamkar mind. My false association with the ego’s dream causes me to be incapable of knowing what anything means and what anything is for. Once I accept and acknowledge this, I will stop reinforcing my individual mind’s aspirations for the world dream I seem to experience and pull back from the projected images of these unconscious wishes. When I turn off the ego film projector by aligning with God and Christ Mind there will be a blank screen filled with golden-white light that the darkness of the images and wishes were hiding. Since I am only part of One Unified Mind, the wishes and desires of the individual mind really are concerned with nothing at all. By holding these wishes and desires as special, my individual mind has no goals, in the scope of what is True and Real, and therefore, I can’t know what anything is for.
When thinking in terms of superficiality, my egoic-ahamkar mind understands purpose, but True Purpose cannot be comprehended with superficial vibrations. The magnetism of thought at this level is weak and foggy at best. Today, I realize that the purpose of everything and everyone I think of and see is to convince me that my avidya-illusions about myself are in effect real and true. I have a false belief that the world is for telling me these things that are not really true. The purpose I have given the film dream movie of a world led to a terror-inducing picture of it. Today, I commit to opening and expanding my mind to the world’s real purpose which is to teach me to wake up and be only Love for All in All.
In order to awaken, to grow in understanding, and to evolve, I must surrender and let go of the individual goals that come from the ego mind. Individual goals mean nothing. As mentioned in the previous day’s contemplation, Self and Christ-Realization, Divine Realization of who I really am is the only goal and will I really should and do have. Aum. Peace. Shanti. Amen.
Inferno of the Real 